rants & emo-ness (sorta rare from me, right)
sighh every time i see some synchro video i really feel like starting to train really hard for some big comp again :( no matter how sian i felt previously, i guess i can’t deny that the passion and love for it is still there :/
but then reality hits and i realise that (1) i am currently terribly unfit (2) i have no club at the moment (3) the new elements are jaw-droppingly difficult. what i’m hoping for is that maybe, when i’m back in spore or smthng i can train for team for some comp. but, its sounds really impossible that just during my hols there will be a comp coming up and etc. sigh. so, there really is very little chance of me doing synchro again. well, i just gotta leave it all to God la. if its his will, all these impossible things may become impossible. so right now, i shall focus on studying.
but sigh, i feel so lonely in the maths dept. its like you go around getting to know people but you don’t really make new friends. just accquaintances or faces you know. not familiar faces though. but well, i guess today was better, went for the lunch thingy with jin zhi. didn’t originally get along very well with her when we met at the ucl camp in spore, but i think under these circumstances, we just banded together. but i won’t be seeing her for lectures cos we’re in different groups! and its really hard making friends with the other asians cos they all have their own cliques from china, hongkong and dunno where. and the ang mohs are friendlier i guess, but we generally won’t get along very well with them..
ohwell. this was such a ranty and emo post. maybe cos i’m falling sick and i hate falling sick. ok i hope and pray that when actual lessons start things will get better. when i start going ocf and getting to know people and etc :|
